It can happen, you know, after all that sugar and love in the air. Then, sadly, we fall back into our regular routine. But....what.....if.....we didn't.....What if every day was Valentine's Day. What if every day you did something small for someone you love. It doesn't have to be your husband or wife (that should happen no matter what), it could be your mom, or your child, or your pet, or someone you work with or maybe someone walking down the street. Simply by setting aside your own personal misery for just a moment and take a breath and...and...and....wait for it....S-M-I-L-E. Engage. Say hello and go one step further and say, "how are you today?". One of my favorite things to do when I go into any business establishment is to say "have a nice day" before the employee has a chance to. Because they ought to do it, but I always beat them. I love it because it makes me feel good.
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| Sweet Utoka Red! |
Spring is slowly coming. Slowly, slowly, slowly. We keep having to cancel classes because of weather but it will come, I know, like I know that tomorrow is Thursday. It will warm up, you can believe that. Spring is a time of renewal and rebirth but today, as I walked my little dogs on my sittings, I pondered for a moment why I was a little sad, why I'd been having pangs of emotion, like something lost. I tracked back over time.....trying to note why Spring would affect me and there is was, that thorn, a broken heart. It was Spring that I lost my best friend, Red. She was a beautiful, loyal, love of a dog and she was my companion at one of the loneliest times of my life. A year before I lost her, I lost my daughter Sophia. I was eight months pregnant when she slipped away from our lives, we hadn't even had a chance to know her. That loss is a deep hollowness in our lives as Jake would have been an amazing brother and though sometimes we laughingly imagine what it would be like for me to have a child at 47, each month a little part of me wishes I would get pregnant. But, it won't happen. So, this is when I pull out a few words of wisdom that were sewn into a fun apron my mother-in-law gave me one Christmas, "Put your big girl panties on and deal". And, deal I will.
And so, I start my afterschool yoga program next week and for 90 minutes or so every Wednesday I am surrounded by girls and I get to see a little of what Sophia might have been in each one of them. So, if you happen to notice me looking a little distant or not always smiling, remember that my heart is a little heavy, but I always bounce back.
So, with loss in mind, a friend ours lost his mother recently. We will be headed out to the Pedernales to hang with him and give him our love. NO CLASS ON SUNDAY, 2/19. Please forgive and know that we will get steady very soon.
Namaste my beautiful friends. Happy Every Day is Love Day!